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 This piece is dedicated to all those that are reaching up higher, looking up and working toward things greater than them in spite of being pulled down, right left and center people, circumstances and the past.
Listen up; hear the story of my good friend.
I’m a great guy, I think. I’m not perfect but I try to stay out of big trouble. My small sister says I’m the most handsome guy in the world and I choose to believe her. I’m told I had refused to come out a birth. Mom really suffered, huffing and puffing and pushing but it was too comfortable and I tried to hold on to the wall but after a while, I was overpowered and I was thrust into the world. I came out screaming at the top of my lungs. My mom didn’t take that episode lightly and she never let me forget it. She told everyone about it. 
Most of my life, I always felt held back. Somehow things never added up. I would read, be confident in exams but I never got the A. I even helped my classmates and they passed better than I did. I started a small business but it’s not making much progress; seems like its plagued by bad luck or something. In spite of my efforts and hard work, somehow I don’t achieve as much as I worked for.
I’m pray a lot but it seems like I have a half blessing; when I can read the word, I can’t pray. When I have a girlfriend, no money; when she flew out, I got a great job. I try so hard but it seems like my efforts are not good enough, I’m not top of the line. Everything around me seems to scream ‘You’re Average! You’re good but not quite.’ This is very scary. I’m ready to work hard but I’m discouraged. I couldn’t stand to fail again. I’m afraid I might never fully achieve my dreams in life. I can’t stand to think that I’ll have to settle for what I get rather than get what I want. The worst part is that I feel held back by something I have no control over. If God asked, “What can I do for you?” "I would like to break out of my past bad record. I don’t want to go the way I seem headed of unfulfilled dreams and frustration; Lord, allow me to go a different way. I’ve realized I can work hard, plan and strategize and still achieve nothing, I need Your blessing. I’m not comparing myself to others but I want the entire portion that is mine. I need real practical change that will allow me the freedom to pursue my dreams. Allow me to see what You see in terms of my potential and what I can achieve. I know You have put great dreams in my heart and I will not be satisfied till they are achieved. Please achieve them through me, I accept to be a tool in Your hand and You get ALL the glory. Keep me safe, protect and comfort me and save me from the haunting past issues. This is from my heart, Amen.
Will it really happen?
Jabez was more honorable than his brothers; but his mother named him Jabez ‘because I bore him in pain’ Jabez cried out to the God of Israel saying, Oh that you would bless me and enlarge my border, and that Your Hand might be upon me, and you would keep me from pain. And God granted his request.
1 Chronicles 4: 9-10
You may say, “Good for him but it could never happen to me,” the devil is a liar and the father of all lies, God is not a respecter of persons. Do not remember the former things…..Behold, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs forth; do you not perceive it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43: 18-19. It can be different!
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at Friday, 13 February 2009 09:58
Amen! right on point Njoki, right on point!
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at Monday, 16 February 2009 08:46
What a fantasitc read....wow...i like, i really like. Especially the part where you say - "Everything around me seems to scream ‘You’re Average! You’re good but not quite." I feel that way many times. people always tring to put me down and tell me i am nothing. This article was written for me...why lie. Thank you. Keep up the good work
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at Monday, 23 February 2009 05:02
hmmmm. True dat
4"MASS COMM STUDENT AT MMU"
at Friday, 16 October 2009 15:02
Experience is not what happens to you but what you do with what happens to you.There is no failure except in no longer trying and remember God is there to help us when we call on Him and He will show us great things that we didn't know.
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